Faith is in you whenever you look
At a dewdrop or a floating leaf
And know that they are because they have to be.
Even if you close your eyes and dream up things
The world will remain as it has always been
And the leaf will be carried by the waters of the river.

You have faith also when you hurt your foot
Against a sharp rock and you know
That rocks are here to hurt our feet.
See the long shadow that is cast by the tree?
We and the flowers throw shadows on the earth.
What has no shadow has no strength to live.


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Thank You

Thank You

There was a time where I would wake up thinking of you…
Counting the seconds until I would see you again…
I would breath thinking of you..
And would close my eyes at night hoping to dream of you…
I would melt just seeing your eyes…
And got transported to wonderland every time you kissed me…
That is how much I loved you…
I now still wake up thinking of you…
Not because I love you anymore…
But because I want you to be happy…
And because I want to wish you a good day…
Wherever you are…
Only time will tell if I ever fall in love again…
And I honestly can’t tell if you ever loved me…
But thanks to you I learned how to love…
And for that I want to say thank you…


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You will have to speak up
For the hurt

You will reach heights
To escape life’s lowly sights

She will have to hear
All you have in here

Let go of your fears
This is what she needs

You need to tear her apart
To go back to the start

Tear into her
With a curse.

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How to hold a grudge

How to hold a grudge

When you hold your grudge
handle it with care.

A grudge is volatile
and can become unstable without warning.
Close contact with your grudge for prolonged periods
will leave a stubborn stain.

Please wear the insulated gloves provided,
stay distant from others
and leave your grudge at home at all times.

Its weight will quickly increase with age,
put it down as soon as possible.


Your Name

Your Name

Your name hasn’t touched my lips
In a while
I wonder if it will hurt
My tongue
Or bring the butterflies
To life.

I just want to feel again

I just want to feel again

Touch your heart,
squeeze it.
is it beating?
does it hurt?
or is it numb
to your pain?

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Its Simple

Its Simple

Without pain
Love couldn’t exist
Without hurt
Love wouldn’t persist
Without regret
Love can’t resist

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I want to tell you
What’s in my head
This entire other world
The constant droning of voices
The screaming and thrashing within

But if I did
If I did…

You’d never look at me the same
I’d be broken to you

I know that I am…
But I just…
I can’t let you see me like that

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Falling hard

Falling hard

Roll me up
as a crisp packet
and dispose where no one will see.
Crush me
to ice on a snowy bank,
as soil on a no-dig bed.
don’t make
eye contact for I
don’t have eyes that can stay,
they weren’t made for more
than casual harm, see –
pain hurts less than love,
your boot less than your lips.
No fingers through hair,
none laced between mine,
burn them, sear them,
throw knives upon them,
I can take that
but I don’t have the strength for your affection nor smile.

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I’m at a loss

I’m at a loss

As I lay awake last night
Contemplating my life
I felt it in my heart
It hit me as sharply as a knife

I love you

And I know you already know
But I’ve only come to realize how much I truly do
I love you so much, That I don’t know what to do
Don’t know what to do with this love for you

It’s burning my soul
With its sheer amount and intensity
I am legitimately at a loss
at what to do with this density

Do I wrap it up and tuck it away?
Or do I allow it to have its way
Would I scare you off if I told you this?
Or would you give a gentle kiss

Would you want to escape from it?
Take your chance to split
Or would you be filled with happiness?
Feel the pure and raw tenderness

It scares me but I know
My self-awareness is rather slow
But now that I know what I know
It’s hard not to show

I love you
I love you so much

Though what to do with this overflowing heart
I haven’t the slightest clue.

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With You Gone

With You Gone

With you gone,
My eyes still see
My legs still move
My hair still grows
But my heart, it’s numb.

With you gone,
My ears still hear
My knees still bend
My hands still touch
But my heart, it stops.

The flowers will grow
The seasons will change
But with you gone
My heart is estranged.

The sun will rise
The sun will set.
But you are gone
And I cannot forget.

My sadness

My sadness

Pain conflicted.
Gain restricted.
Plain predicted.
flame addicted.
Kill a thought.
here’s another.
Take a Rose.
Thoughts convulse.
Caught no pulse.
Should I take a pill?
Todd you could! I will.



Heart made of glass
my mind of stone –
a soul made of fire
eyes burn alone
raising my voice and
walls of fear
someday i’ll make it
out of here

Betrayal💘 & Revenge🔫

Betrayal💘 & Revenge🔫

You said you loved me.

You said you cared.

You said you want me.

Yes, that’s what you said.

You said you’ll protect me.

But you hurt me instead.

You said you’d stay with me.

But you left me for dead.

You said you’ll heal me.

But you watched me as I bled.

You said you’d hold me

So I followed as you led.

But you left me.

And you ran away, ahead.

You said you’d shield me.

But you’ve left me scared.

I thought you were my lover.

I thought you were my partner.

But you’re just a monster.

You’re one big motherfucker.

So I’ll haunt you forever.

I’ll be one step closer.

So prepare to meet your maker



You really didn’t care
I let you meet my family
You hunted to hurt
Plunged to the dirt
Changed every story
Twisted to deal
It’s clear

Unspoken #Poetry

Unspoken #Poetry

I observe
There is something
That I couldn’t explain
Something unusual
The ambiance
The people surround
Gives headache
And affects my mood
Did I miss something?
Nor forgot something?
It bothers me
My mind whirls
In a sudden change
That I can’t accept. 💔

Insecurity #Poetry

Insecurity #Poetry


he called her fat
coz he was thin

he called her pale
coz he was dark

he called her emotional
coz he was heartless

he called her nagging
coz he was secretive

yet she loved
and he cheated

his insecurities
killed the love
killed the girl
killed her entity

she hanged
and he died

Burn Bright #Poetry

Burn Bright #Poetry

You made me feel like,
the sun,
with your sweet words,
and love
orbiting around me.

Then you left me to burn,
And I realized it was
your lies
trapping me in.


My Mask

I put it on, everyday.
I tried not to make mistakes.
Even though it’s full of cracks,
I still sit up and put on my act.
And though no one ever wants to ask,
I still get up.
And put on My Mask.

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The Only #Poetry

Your honeyed words so sweet
However bitter the taste to come,
A sharp and clever tongue
Designed to ever make me numb

You spoke your way right to my heart
And gripped it in your hand
When you were finished scrying,
You replaced it in its stand

“What did you see?”
“Only me.”

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It eats you away inside out
It nibbles away at your pleasure
it feasts away on your dreams

It laughs at your issues
It toys with your emotion
It plays with your heart.

Your hearts raises
Your hand tremble
Your stomach drops

There is nothing you can do
But pluck your hair out of your head
Because the silent killer is here
Waiting to take you to the door.

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my head is killing me
looking at anything hurts
it’s like if someone took a knife and
I don’t know why it hurts so bad
my eyes overflow with tears
it’s a migraine??
there’s my heartbeat
it makes my head hurt worse
please stop
I just want to sleep but I can’t
medicine not helping
what am I supposed to do?

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My oxygen mask is isolation
Save me from this desolation
Oh so help me someone
From the villain that is myself.



For the moment I am content
But I know it won’t last.
Soon I’ll be cast away at last
Reality’s been bent
from all the time spent
fighting with feelings that dried like cement.
I don’t know where to go
or what choice to make
Because it all might be fake
And there’s no way to know.
I could ask her, although,
She might ask for a break.


Who was it who loved more?

Who was it who loved more?
Who was it who was loved?
Where did the loved go?
Where has the lover gone?

It was He who loved more
It was She who was loved
It was She who got up and left
It was He who stayed far away.

Who was it who was dishonest?
Who was it who told the truth?
Where did the honest one go?
Where has the liar gone?

It was He who lied about my feelings
It was She who openly said his own
It was She who got up and left
It was He who stayed far away.

It was She who got up and left
It was He who stayed far away.

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The Most Awful Pain that We Love

What is
the most awful pain that we love?
That is simple.
The most awful pain: that we love.

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Rapism (INDIA)

In our great country INDIA,
These types of animals are found in addition to animals in INDIA.
first they rape.
second who support rape.
third those who support rape victims on the basis of religion.
others just watch the show.


Negative Love

Love is blind
That’s why I can’t be bound
For me love is dead
Like scissors into a thread

I’m like a vulture
Waiting for love to fracture

Negativism Rocks ✌️


How Much Can I Handle?

Life is cruel
We just follow its rules
Like its a game
To get the most fame

We do what life says
But it rarely pays
When we get rewards
It gives consequences we cant afford

Is life worth it
Is it just an endless miserable pit
What is life for
Can I handle much more


Best Pain #Poetry

It’s a kick to the heart
to write your name
over and over again

and it picks me apart
reverbs in my brain
to have you inside of my heart

but this might just be
the very best pain
ever known to me

if this is
as bad as it gets
i’ll take it on the chin.

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Frustrated #Musings

I’m so frustrated
Why these thoughts come to me,
Why I can’t change what happened?
These Thoughts Won’t help me feel sedated.

Wanting to be killed.

Nor Sex
Nor Love
Nor Cheat
Nor Flirt
Nor Work
Nor Adore
Nothing worked,
These thoughts just keep on bloody fucking me.

Please someone just come an kill me.

Please someone bring that days back,so i can make things right bc…..

© VishalDutia


Storms #Musings

Storm’s Love’s a cloud,
at some point it’s
going to rain
but then after
the rain comes
a shine.
sometimes when
it hurts, you need
to remember that
at some point it’s
gonna be okay.


4 Lines #Poetry

I right thousands of letters.
But only “you” hurts me a lot.
It tears me apart every time it pops in my head.
But all I can do is just write it down.


The Tears. #Poetry

The sadness,
The fears,
The upset,
The Tears.

The feelings start,
The darkness nears,
The loneliness approaches,
Here come The Tears.

I feel alone,
Nothing is clear,
On my own,
Stuck with The Tears.

The Tears of pain,
The Tears of shame,
The Tears of guilt,
The Tears of blame.

It’s just me, me and The Tears.


No healers, All wounded #Poetry


She sits and cries,
She cries and waits,
She waits for someone,
Someone to help,
But no one comes
No one helps,
She waits as she cries
She cries as she sits
Next to a boy
Who sits and cries.


Today Is The First Day #Poetry


Today is the first day
I haven’t spoken to you
In years

Today is the first day
I felt sick when people asked me
How I was?

Today is the first day
I truly didn’t know my own mind
Or yours

Today is the first day
You weren’t someone I could turn to
I was alone


Today is the first day
Of the future now to be
It’ll shine, wonderful
Without you, I’m still me.


For my first true love. #Poetry


The most amazing girl I had ever met;

yet I was too stupid to see.

I regret what I did;

I’m sorry for the way I used to be.

It’s not who I am anymore;

That monster wasn’t really me.

How was I able to treat you like this…

While I felt so good during our first kiss..

I broke your heart…

Even though you loved me from the start…

Now I’m laying here crying my heart out;

Thinking, will you ever forget?

Will you forever feel pain and regret?

I don’t want to lose you;

Let me make up for all the shit.

I truly never wanted to hurt you like this,

Yet I did an even now I still unwillingly do.

You’re as beautiful as cherry blossom drifting trough the air.

I love your deep eyes, your soft lips,

your perfect body and your dark hair.

When I’m with you all I can do is stare.

Stare at your mesmerizing beauty.

I know you will never believe me, but it’s true…

You’re amazing and I love you.


Love Snuffed #Poetry

Love snuffed,
drowned in distance,
choked by fear,
too much persistence,
always too much distance,
and inexperience,
and in my experience,
there’s no good way to leave.