Depression is feeling anxious, sad, lonely and numb, but you don’t know whyDepression is feeling weak and tired at all timesDepression is feeling like you just want to sleep foreverDepression is consuming alcohol because it’s the only thing that numbs the painDepression is making plans but then cancelling them last minute because it feels overwhelming to socializeDepression is being distant to your friends and family … Continue reading Depression Part 2
Happy daysCome in wavesBut most days come with anxiety, sadness, fearDrinking, overthinking and tearsA struggle to get out of bedEveryday is a battle inside your headA cheerful laugh, a pearly smileCan only be forced for awhileIt’s a relief to take a showerTo cry in there for an hourUndead outside, dying insideContemplating suicideYou don’t really want to dieYou just want it to stop hurtingAnd death feels … Continue reading Depression Part 1
You might’ve seen me walking along the roadLong golden curls, headed for home Soft blue dress, with little orange flowersHopping in puddles from April’s rain showers Or you might’ve seen my face plastered all over townMissing child posters “NOT BEEN FOUND” Amber alerts, sirens blareNo one really knew me, but suddenly they all care Maybe I’m locked in a basement, or wrapped up in a … Continue reading Have you seen me?
Pain conflicted. Gain restricted. Overdose. Plain predicted. flame addicted. Comatose. Kill a thought. here’s another. Take a Rose. Thoughts convulse. Caught no pulse. Should I take a pill? Todd you could! I will. Continue reading My sadness
Nothing mends a broken soulThe feeling of giving upand losing all goalsThe constant fear of f*ckingupand a heart with a gaping hole. Continue reading Broken
No direction No worth No purpose No goal It feels like I’m falling Through a bottomless hole Continue reading Depression
Love.. he called her fat coz he was thin he called her pale coz he was dark he called her emotional coz he was heartless he called her nagging coz he was secretive yet she loved and he cheated his insecurities killed the love killed the girl killed her entity she hanged and he died Continue reading Insecurity #Poetry
Funny how we’ve made the choiceTo die even before we are born Funny how many attempts we can makeBefore we finally fall Funny how long it takes for the blood to run outAnd leave us for once and for all Funny how much your body can handleWhen you don’t want to deal no more Funny how gas can make you laugh and cryWhen you’re locked … Continue reading Suicide is a Funny Thing #Poetry
I didn’t see youuntil you saw meand I didn’t love youuntil you loved meand you didn’t leave mebut I left youand you don’t look heartbrokenbut i do. Continue reading What Hurts The Most #Poetry
Isn’t it madness Today Forgot tomorrow Love should be honest Love is a promise Not meant to be used Not meant to hurt another Seeing in your eyes forgotten Just a week ago Love is what I saw Where do you go To hide in your shame knowing it’s karma coming to eat your soul Better am , l sitting here hurt and angry … Continue reading Karma is a bitch but again so are you #Poetry
I put it on, everyday. I tried not to make mistakes. Even though it’s full of cracks, I still sit up and put on my act. And though no one ever wants to ask, I still get up. And put on My Mask. ©2018. VishalDutia. All Rights Reserved. Continue reading My Mask
Lengthy Eulogy Paraphrased Pathology Box is cold Light is thin Would someone please Let me the hell back in. ©2018. VishalDutia. All Rights Reserved. Continue reading Death by number #Poetry
What do you do, when your entire life has been an act? A terrible mask, glued to your face, suffocating you The mask shows a smile, while underneath, You crumble But that’s okay, I guess, as long as you’re happy, everything is fine, right? ©2018. VishalDutia. All Rights Reserved. Continue reading Living as an Act
Everybody is addicted to something & this body seems to love sadness darkness & pain – this mind unearths emotions that cause quite the commotion to encourage a reaction so intense just to distract from the silence. Maybe brains get addicted to emotions just like they do to other substances and that’s why this memory that makes me sick keeps plaguing my mind over and … Continue reading Addiction
It eats you away inside out It nibbles away at your pleasure it feasts away on your dreams It laughs at your issues It toys with your emotion It plays with your heart. Your hearts raises Your hand tremble Your stomach drops There is nothing you can do But pluck your hair out of your head Because the silent killer is here Waiting to take … Continue reading Stress
My oxygen mask is isolation Save me from this desolation Oh so help me someone From the villain that is myself. Continue reading Oxygen
I can’t get out of bed. I feel so numb. “quit begging for attention” im not. im not. up and out of bed. it took me quite some time. is it noon already? “there’s nothing wrong” but there is.. there is. I don’t want attention, give me just the opposite. don’t look at me, I want to sleep in the dark. but it’s not dark. … Continue reading Depression calls again #Poetry
Over thinking Heavy drinking Under eating Always repeating Over stressed Very depressed Under weight Slow heart rate ©VishalDutia Continue reading Over Under #Poetry
It hurts more than pain. It falls more than rain. It rises more than the sun. It is never slain. It is far from a game. More powerful than death. It will keep you up at night. It will give you rest. Its the worst. Its the best, Its the only real test. Its confusing as it gets. understood as its blessed. It can be … Continue reading Love #Poetry
Mirror Mirror on the wall, Is my face prettiest of all, Mirror Mirror lie to me, Show me what I want to see, Mirror mirror on the wall, Why don’t I like the girl I see, Mirror Mirror on the wall, When will you let me be me, Mirror Mirror on the wall, Tell me who’s the biggest fool of all, Mirror Mirror on the … Continue reading Mirror Mirror on the wall #Poetry
They say to be yourself, but then shoot you down if you are They say that you’re loved, but every action shows otherwise They say that life has meaning, but they have no proof They say I light up their life, but all I see is darkness I’ve gotten so used to people telling me useless lies that I’ve started to tell them myself I … Continue reading Telling Lies #Poetry
Everything is temporary, Everything. From the birds and the bees to the people among them, to the flowers in the soil to the animals in their habitats, everything is temporary. Our lives are temporary, our feelings, our emotions, our possessions, our loves… It’s all temporary. Continue reading Everything is Temporary #Poetry
The sadness, The fears, The upset, The Tears. The feelings start, The darkness nears, The loneliness approaches, Here come The Tears. I feel alone, Nothing is clear, On my own, Stuck with The Tears. The Tears of pain, The Tears of shame, The Tears of guilt, The Tears of blame. It’s just me, me and The Tears. Continue reading The Tears. #Poetry
Depression is deadly It hides behind a mask A mask of joy and pity Depression is defined by Self-hate Self-deprecation Self-harm It holds you tight Locks you in Melts the key into a Blade Suffocates you then Leaves Abandones you and keeps coming back to torture you It stabs you And leaves scars That kill It is parented by Death and destruction It controls you … Continue reading Depression #Poetry
“In all of your living, don’t forget to live.” ― Ricky Maye Continue reading “In all of your living, don’t forget to live.” ― Ricky Maye
