Depression #Poetry

2017-01-11-07-03-13

Depression is deadly
It hides behind a mask
A mask of joy and pity

Depression is defined by
Self-hate
Self-deprecation
Self-harm

It holds you tight
Locks you in
Melts the key into a
Blade
Suffocates you then
Leaves
Abandones you and keeps
coming back to torture you

It stabs you
And leaves scars
That kill
It is parented by
Death and destruction

It controls you
Tells you to do things
Things you just have to
You can’t say no
No matter how much you want to

You try to call for
HELP
But no one will hear
Because it comes in the form
Of smiles and
I’m fines

It tears you down
And haunts your days
It sends hope through
Blades and Pills.
Makes you think that
You have tried
Even won

It destroys your
Future
Tears down your walls
Breaks away the hope of joy

Becomes the Queen
And calls for your head
You can try to lie in bed
But will be bombarded by
Thoughts of being dead

But if it left
You wouldn’t know how to
Continue
Would you be the fake strong
woman or the weak
Dying girl

Depression is non existent
But suicide is for attention seekers
My pain is my shadow that no one can
See

Suicide was forbidden until I
Completely forgot my reason
To live
It happened quickly
Sliced
Hung
OD’ed

Depression is never there
Even when its staring them in the
Face
Even when you beg for
Someone to notice they
Never can

There is always a medical solution
Therapy, rehab,
“Tell me about yourself”
Lies,Lies,Lies

The only solution Suicide
Suicide I shall choose
When I can’t dream
Of that happy place
Given to my on a late night of
anxiety

I will send myself there
So i don’t have to wake up
I can finally be free

But for now
I can still see that place
While it may be far
It’s still barely there

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165 Comments Add yours

  1. niiiiinaaaa says:

    wow .. that‘s the way I always wanted to describe it.. I just couldn‘t find the words to describe depression like that. But you wrote it down, it is exactly the way I feel. I would never be able to describe depression like that. Bit that was a perfect description

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  2. It´s the shadow that will never go away, even with the night light it still haunts you on your every turn. And when you think it’s a thing of the past, it always comes back with each morning light. Thank you for embodying these feelings with such pertinent words. Have a nice and peaceful day.

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  3. Vishal, stunning, amazing – you should be so proud. I’d love your feedback on my latest blog post “Mind the gap” . Really hope you like it!

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  4. Radha4462 says:

    This is painfully beautiful

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  5. pramegha says:

    That is beautifully and truthfully written. That reaches to what exactly a person feels in depression.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  6. Noel Hartem says:

    This is a very wonderful post. Many feel the subject of depression is taboo but so many suffer from it and not just the afflicted but the families as well. Thank you for this window

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Glad it you liked it thank you 👍

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  7. planetwords says:

    Sounds legit…and that ain’t common where mental health is concerned.
    Check out my blog at planetwords.wordpress.com
    You might find things to your taste there.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you..

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  8. zenakrishnoo says:

    This is soooooooo gooood.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  9. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    IT NOBODY EVER DESCRIBED IT BETTER—FEELS JUST LIKE THIS!

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  10. RahulYuvi says:

    Some really meaningful words up there..I myself have suffered 7-8 months of depression in 2010-2011..By God’s Grace, I eventually came out of it and so for all my friends experiencing any sort of depression , I just want to say that Sometimes, we think that we have been buried when actually we have been planted .This I learnt after having won over a chronic disease after years of struggle..Just hold on, just never give up..I would like to share my complete story here , how I battled with an incurable disease..I wish It helps at least 1 needy person out here….Here’s the story (Not a sad one I promise 🙂 ) https://the-passport-souls.travel.blog/2017/09/04/how-i-tamed-a-monster-called-vitiligo-just-never-give-up/

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Surely will go through

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  11. Beautifully described the plight of depression 😊

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      👍

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  12. Wow. Just wow. The way you described depression so honestly is amazing. Thank you.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  13. scoutandjem says:

    Such beautiful words

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you

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  14. I agree. Having depression is the reason I write poetry. If you’d like give me any suggestions on my poetry, https://caelidotblog.wordpress.com

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you mam.. yaa sure will go through your blog soon

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  15. Wow, this was very accurate and felt lots of emotion.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      thank you

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  16. This so accurately reflects everything a feel daily. 🌺

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you 👍😊

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  17. Anon says:

    #beenthere

    https://wordpress.com/view/cocoaandtabasco.wordpress.com

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      👍

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  18. i relate to this piece of art on an ethereal level oml.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you ,,😊👍💐

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  19. I feel like someone just took a bright light and a magnifying glass to some of the most painful realities in the modern world. A brilliant insight that truly does the subject justice.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thank you mam 💐💐💐

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  20. dpdisorder94 says:

    Beautifully written poem, and extremely relatable.
    Would appreciate it if anyone suffering from dissociative disorders/anxiety/depression has time to have a look at my blog, as I’m hoping to help as many people as possible – https://dpdisorder.wordpress.com/

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      Thanks a lot

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  21. brenderomari says:

    Reblogged this on brenderomariwritings.

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  22. This is intense. Words so revealing.

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      😊

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  23. Reality of depression. You operated very smooth operation on depression by your poem.
    In fact it is autopsy of depression.
    Hit on the Heart.
    Nice Bhaiya

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    1. VishalDutia says:

      😊

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